Remember You

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*T

Baby and I was in the bed in our night clothes just chilling when someone knocked on the door. I got off the bed

"Who is it??" I said walking towards the door

"Indigo..." she said on the other side of the door

I opened the door and she came in.

"Wassup??" I asked closing and locking the door back

"Y'all I just seen Mari and Sanjay on the balcony kissing..." Indigo said sitting in the love seat beside our bed

"Why you tell us??" Aja asked still looking at the tv

"Cuz she can't do that she supposed to be thinking about me..." Indigo said making me look at her stupid

"Indigo, you can't have your cake and eat it
too..." I said looking at her

"I know that..." she said

"Obviously you don't cuz how you gone be with Dawn and want Mari to be sad thinking about you instead of going on with her life??" I asked looking at her

"That's not what I meant..." she said looking down

"Look..." I said sitting beside her

"She tried with you but I didn't work. You moved on with someone else and she has every right to do the same..." I said

"I know it's just every time I see them close, touching or smiling at each other I get this weird feeling. Like it should be me doing all that with her..." she said with her head in her hands

"How about this think about what your decision was and what you really want. What's meant to be well aways find its way back..." I said to her as she stood up from the couch

"Goodnight..." she said walking out

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*Indigo

I left out of T and Aja room and went back into my room. Dawn was sitting on the bed on her phone.

"Where you went??" She asked

"Down to T's room..." I said sitting at the edge of the bed

"I was gone ask what did you see on the balcony cuz then you walked in the room you looked shook..." Dawn said now looking at me

"No I didn't seen anything, I just kind of remembered something..." I said really not wanting to talk about the situation anymore

I slid off my slippers, I crawled up to the top of the bed, got under the covers and laid down.
I turned my back towards Dawn and got on my phone. While on my phone I ended up scrolling through pictures of Mari and I. Lately Mari has been on my mind heavy, I know it prolly don't seem like it but she is. Every night I think about her. Throughout the day I think about her. Sometimes at night I even dream about her. Just a couple of months ago I was upset and didn't believe we was even together. But now it's like I wanna remember her. I wanna talk bout us.
I know she tried and tried but I wasn't begin open about it . But now she's moved on and I feel some type of way. To be honest I don't know how to feel or think. Looking through the pictures made me miss her. I don't what I missed but I knew I missed her a lot. My soul missed her. I could feel it, when she's around me I want her to say something to me sooo bad. And when she does my heart beat faster and it makes me feel good. This feelings are fucking weird dawg. I feel all these things but I still don't remember her. The shit is crazy. I put my phone on charger and closed my eyes so I could go to sleep.