An Uprising Of Love

09

“What is the difference between love and a crush?” I muttered to myself while typing those words.

I'm searching for it on Google since I want to know their differences. Many opinions appeared on my screen when I clicked the search button.

Pinindot ko ang site na may pinaka maraming opinion. Nagulat ako sa unang lumabas. Hindi ko expected na ganito agad ang bubungad sa akin!

“You will stop watching porn when you fall in love.” Pag basa ko sa isang comment.

“What the fuck?! I don't watch porn! At hindi rin ako in love!” Deny ko agad sa sarili. Ano ba naman 'tong mga taong 'to!

Nag scroll pa ako para sa ibang meaning. I'm pathetic, right? Why didn't I even know the difference between them?
 

“You should want to be around the person you're in love with.” Basa ko pa sa isang comment. What the heck?

I scrolled more. “When you're in love, all you can think about is her, and you'll feel as though she's the only person that you can see.”

The flashback when Yvxia is the only woman I see in the midst of the crowd. Where she's the only one who's vivid in the surroundings that are hazy. It's always her; it's always Yvxia.

Hindi na muli akong nag scroll pa, hindi naman na matitino ang iba pang sagot. Wala rin akong nakuhang magandang paliwanag para sa nararamdaman ko.

Mayroon pa akong nabasa na kapag daw nandiyan ang taong gusto mo bibilis daw ang tibok ng puso mo. May mararamdaman ka raw na parang paru-paru sa tiyan mo.

Lahat ng iyon ay hindi ko pa nararamdaman kaya wala akong ideya sa sinasabi nila.

Today is a Saturday, and I have nothing planned. Except for my pending task. I plan to do it later at night since, for me, it's the most peaceful time of the day.

I got ready before heading downstairs. I just wore comfortable clothes because I'm going to jog to kill some time. It's still early in the morning, so I already expected that no one would be awake. Mom is out on business while our maids are likely still sleeping.

Inikot ko lang ang kalahati ng villa bago bumalik. I took a quick shower before going downstairs again.  Nag hoodie lang ako at sweat pants dahil balak kong mag chill lang sa loob ng kwarto.

Kumuha lang ako ng snacks ko. Hindi kasi ako sanay na walang kinakain habang nanonood lang ng Netflix or hindi kaya’y naglalaro. Gusto ko palagi ay may kinakain ako.

I was about to go upstairs when I saw Ate Jane coming out of her room. Her eyes are still close, but she managed to walk without getting bumped.

“Ate Jane!” I excitedly said.

“Ay jusko kabayo!” Gulat na sabi nito habang naka hawak pa sa dibdib. Hindi ko mapigilang tumawa dahil sa reaksyon niya.

“Chill!” Binaba ko muna ang mga hawak ko para harapin siya. Hindi pa siya nakaka recover mula sa pagkagulat.

“Ang aga mo naman yatang magising ngayon?” Nagtataka nitong tanong at lumapit sa refrigerator para kumuha ng tubig. Eyes still glued to me.

“Who said I slept?” Biro ko pero totoo naman iyon. Wala pa akong tulog. Mabuti nga at nakayanan kong mag jogging e. Umupo lang ako sa counter para makausap siya, maaga pa naman.