Yn's Perspective —
I closed my phone and laid down on my bed . It pissed me off how he could ask me that he would block me when he'll go to coaching like dude are you kidding me ?
Why are you doing this to me ? Just because I told your mom about you .
I don't want you to suicide ofcourse , and if he would do that then the blame will be on me like yn you knew he cut his hand but didn't told us .
I did It for him . He is clearly an immature person right now . And what the hell do you want my picture huh ?
Don't you have it already? We've spent more than a fucking year ? Did he delete that ?
Maybe , because he has a habit if he's mad at anyone he would simply delete their pictures .
but I'm not comfortable giving him a picture yet .
Yup , I stopped trying because I'm tired of that shit .
I still wanted to be friends with him but on the other hand I'm tired of this shit , begging for him to unblock me and all and now that he did .
My heart is kind of uncomfortable , he's changed .
And yes I know his birthday is tomorrow , in fact I don't wanna give him the attention I used to give .
But yet again I want everything to be like it used to be .
It confuses me , knowing that one person doesn't give a fuck about you when they used to be with you 24/7 .
I'm not going to wish him right away . I'll do it in the morning or so . But I'll put my status on WhatsApp but not gonna wish him .
I somewhere in my heart wants to treat him the way he treated me .
I don't wanna give him so much attention .
Isn't this what is called toxicity ?
But I refuse to believe our friendship is being toxic because he's someone whom I just don't wanna lose .
I want to fight for my friendship .
I don't wanna give up on him , not this soon .
And why I'm so desperate to be friends with him again is because I've loved him as my best friend .
I can never forget him , I can never forget the memories We've made together .
I know he ignored me and blocked me and the fact that I cried every single night for him .
Asking God why didn't he just unblock me and why can't we go like we used to .
At this point I don't care about my self respect. I want my friend back . I want my best friend back .
I'm so desperate for this friendship because I'm happy when I'm with him . I'm the happiest person on earth with him .
He makes me feel safe . And I want that back . I just don't want to give up yet , I want to give my 100% , and will surely save this friendship .
This friendship means alot to me . No one can imagine how much it means to me .
I couldn't express it in words . I don't wanna give up , I will wait for him to change .
I'll wait for him to come back to me , I will wait for him to explain everything to me , every reason .…..
Actually , he said he'll go to coaching and that time he'll block me . I couldn't go to school , because I had a sprain in my legs .
It happened a month ago and still hasn't healed yet . Corona has already decreased here .
After 4 months of school closing , the finals have already started and are taken in online mode .
And after that we got our results and then as I wasn't able to stand or walk , I got admission to another school and there I shouldn't have to go school.
I only need to give exams, that's it . It's called corresponding / correspondence mode .
To be continued
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