Angelina
I turned and tossed around on my bed but sleep was far away from my eyes.
Sigh.
If I can't sleep I start getting hungry after a few hours.
That's one of the major problems with sleepless nights.
Huff.
I couldn't sleep and also my stomach started growling in hunger, so I decided to head to the dining room and get something to eat.
I got off my bed, put on my footwear and went to the dining room.
I was going to open the door of the dining room but my hand halted a few meters away from the handle when I heard someone laughing.
I stood rooted to my place and then a moment later I heard two voices and recognized them as Theo and Anna.
They were talking something and probably Theo is cooking.
I wanted to go in but somehow my body is not moving from the spot.
After a while, I bit my lip, looked one last time at the door and walked away.
After reaching my room, I settled myself near the window and stared aimlessly at the sky and the stars.
What am I doing?
Why am I having all these unnecessary thoughts?
Since when did I start feeling like an intruder in my own house?
I had been so ignorant that I failed to recognize the feelings growing inside me.
I failed to recognize the insecurities that have been subconsciously plaguing my mind.
All these months, I kept on convincing myself that nothing has changed and everything is normal but involuntarily I kept building boundaries around myself each time I felt my brothers are changing slowly.
After speaking to my therapist today and evaluating my thoughts, I finally realized how much things have changed between me and my brothers, especially Theo, Dyl and the twins.
I kept pushing away all the thoughts of their behavior slowly changing because I was scared.
Scared to accept the fact that the truth is indeed bringing about a change.
The most irritating part is that I'm unable to understand if I forced about this change or they did.
I knew the change was inevitable but I kept denying that thought.
I kept denying my own feelings, my own insecurities.
I've been giving myself false hopes of happiness.
No wonder I ended up in a situation like this!
Sigh.
This is the reason I never wanted to try therapy in the first place!
I knew something like this would happen.
I've already experienced it once and now again I'm doing it.
The last time I went to a therapist it ended up with me almost slipping into depression.
Thankfully Vince stopped it before it could escalate into a full blown depression.
But the first time I went to a therapy it did work to an extent and I did overcome some of the issues but unfortunately we had to stop it.
After 5 months of me stopping my last therapy, Vince again proposed me to try it out with Kaylee.
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Teen FictionAngelina Marino The only princess of the Marino family. The world knows her as a princess who has everything a girl could wish for. With unlimited fortune and five loving and overprotective brothers, life seems to be happy and flawless. But is it? A...