College Roommates (soukoku fanfic)

Alone.

A/N: Ahem hi guys my name is red in my last chapter... you guys deserve an apology so let me rq bring out my guitar bc i don't have a ukulele.

ahem my apology song *plays a string* SIKE no apologies MUWAHHAHA.

Odasaku: Really? You killed me off and you won't even give a real apology?

Red: Stfu ur 7 ft under

anyways enough goofing around idk i lost my self there im currently sick AGAIN so that's great
anyways im really sorry for all off you but i hope this chapter will make you readers happy<3.

June 10th
Saturday 3am.

It has been 3 days after Odasaku funeral and Dazai refused leave his dorm. The principal gave him a few weeks off school to mourn his lost. Chuuya refused to go to school, he spent all his time taking care off Dazai. Knowing Dazai mental health, Chuuya was afraid he might snap and lose it.

One morning at 3am Chuuya woke up hearing the TV turn on, he noticed the brunette wasn't in bed so chuuya got up and walked out off his room and saw Dazai sitting on the couch watching TV. Chuuya noticed something, dazai had no bandages on. He had taken all his bandages off his chest, neck, arms, he was actually shirtless with just sweatpants on.

"Dazai?" Chuuya said in a sleepy voice.

"Chuuya. Sorry did i wake you?" Dazai said turning his head towards Chuuya.

Chuuya shock his head and sat in the couch next to the brunette wrapping his arms around Dazai. Dazai then moved away looking down with a frown.

"What's wrong?" Chuuya asked eyeing dazai.

"I... I don't want you to feel- um.." Dazai stuttered.

"Im not going to feel, uncomfortable, scared, or disgusted at your scars. Ive bandaged you up alot, you don't scare me" Chuuya said pulling dazai closer to him.

The brunette moved closer to Chuuya connecting their hands together.

"Why did you take off your bandages anyways?" Chuuya asked.

"I felt so hot and cold and just uncomfortable that i just needed them off me" Dazai said stroking Chuuyas hand.

"You haven't gotten any good sleep" Chuuya said.

"Chuuya"

"Yeah?" Chuuya responded looking at the brunette.

"When mom left, i was alone. When i left you, i was alone. And now i have you again but what if you end up being gone and then I'm alone. And all my life, ive had Odasaku. But now I'm alone. I want to be alone, to not bring the people i care about into my shitty life. But at the same time, i want someone to be with me till the very end." Dazai said with a heavy breath moving away from Chuuya just a bit.

"Oda said i should live my life to fullest. How do i do that when everything is grey to me. No colors in this world. Just grey." Dazai said leaning on his knees to hide his face.

Chuuya took Dazais hands and brought him into a hug. Hugging him tight.

"Your not alone anymore. Im here, you have me, you will never lose me. The color grey will dissapear. But it will only dissapear when you decide it can. You are the only one who has control on that. And ill be with you, by your side. To help you. You will never be alone." Chuuya said bringing Dazai out off the hug and cupping his face that had tears slowly falling down.

"I love you" Dazai said.

"I love you too, Osamu" Chuuya said giving dazai a soft kiss on his lips.

Dazai then laid on Chuuyas chest. Both laying in the couch.