hi hi :) i’m alive everyone! it’s been... well, i’ll be honest - it’s been months since my initial disappearance. i’ve been struggling a lot, and quarantine has kinda put me in the slumps. i’m gonna be truthful because i feel like it’s needed in cases like these - especially since i’ve been away for so long. i don’t go outside too often anymore - maybe once every two weeks? i’ve isolated myself. we’re in quarantine, so that’s expected, but i can’t find the motivation to even go to my front yard. everything feels so repetitive. i start the day by going to school and staring at a computer for hours. i take a nap. i do homework. i get ready for bed. i sleep. the days seem short but long. it’s endless. i’m in a vicious cycle that’s tearing down any ounce of optimism i have left in me. i feel hopeless. writing feels like a chore right now. i open wattpad every couple of weeks to a flood of notifications. “please update,” “when are you updating?” “you can’t leave us on a cliffhanger like that.” i’m sorry. i’m really sorry. give me time to find the energy to write. i’ve burnt out for now. all of my energy is going to school and attempts to take care of myself. i still love writing, but it doesn’t feel as stress relieving when people are pressuring you to do it. i hope you guys are doing okay. i have a tumblr account that i write a bit on - @ babypinkhearts - i’ve been a bit more active there, but again, i haven’t written in a while. i love you all lots, thank you for being patient with me. i’ll try my best to stay positive, i promise.
i’m not sure if my messages work, but if you want to tell me anything, they’re always open :’) if not, then my tumblr account’s dms work just fine.
thank you again. i’ll see you all hopefully soon <3
- mels