17. I want to kick and scream

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Soundtrack: Angel on Fire - Halsey

I hide and cower in the corner
Conversation's getting hard
'Cause nobody seems to ask about me anymore
And nobody seems to care 'bout anything I think

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Private Messages: With A Honey Bear 🍯

Sleeping Grace
Don't be mad but I'm seeing Bella again.

A Honey Bear 🍯
What! why!

Sleeping Grace
IDK, see's a good distraction.

A Honey Bear 🍯
yeah but she's not helping you get better, she's just numbing the pain.

Sleeping Grace
SO?!? I don't have to think about it anymore and sorry if that makes you upset!

A Honey Bear 🍯
I'm not your mother Grace, do whatever you want but I think she's bad news.

Sleeping Grace
well you think everyone is bad news unless it's you

A Honey Bear 🍯
Grace stop. I know you're hurting, but don't take it out on me. I'm actually trying to help.

Sleeping Grace
Well, I don't want your fucking help.

A Honey Bear 🍯
Talk to me when this stage is over.
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user what are they?

Bellaisblue we cute.

user this is a downgrade

Bellaisblue @user at least I don't make her cry.

user TEA.

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Private Messages: with Scarry Jo 🕷

Scarry Jo 🕷
Hi, Grace. Can we talk, please?

Sleeping Grace
I thought I was ex-communicated from the Marvel cast for the meantime.

Scarry Jo 🕷
well not really, we just weren't sure if Lizzie would like us to talk to you yet and obviously we are on her side.

Sleeping Grace
So why have you decided to go against your queen?

Scarry Jo 🕷
I haven't.
I wanted to ask how you are doing and not just that 'are you okay?', because I know you're not.

Sleeping Grace
Let me think...
I've cut ties with my best friend here,
I'm currently in a fight with my best friend at home,
I've got no real friends,
The only person who I feel okay around, helps me suppress my feelings instead of dealing with them but everyone seems to hate her,
and now you're talking to me.
I guess I feel like I want to take a long run off a short pier and drown.

Scarry Jo 🕷
I want to know how you feel, not what's happening in your life.

Sleeping Grace
...
I feel alone.
I feel like I want to kick and scream and tell Lizzie that I'm sorry and I shouldn't have said anything at all. But I also feel like I did the right thing by telling her and because of that, I'll never get my best friend back.
I feel like every morning, I grab my phone and type down every single thing that happened the day before and then I realise that I'm the one who cut ties, so I delete it all.
I feel like I want to hold her again. Feel the warmth in her body and hear her heart beating against my chest.

Scarry Jo 🕷
I think you should end this 'Break' because you make each other better and time apart is making you both miserable.

Sleeping Grace
She's miserable?

Scarry Jo 🕷
Let's just say she's been on her own little hiatus like you.

Sleeping Grace
Okay, I'll talk to her.

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